In The USA. again

So I'm back in the US.

It's good, I suppose. I like the US. But I also feel kinda... meh. I don't know.

The scene here is tiny. There are probably 50 people on manhunt and as soon as I listed as "Spokane", I got millions of messages lol. Scary. "FRESH MEAT!"

Boy do I feel loved

:P

But it's alright. Just very quiet.

Last night, a guy booked a room here so we could have sex; he paid $100 for half an hour haha. But it was nice to be with a guy again. And he was kinda hot. Well, he was alright.

Was meant to meet another guy today but I guess that hasn't worked out. Guh.

The only problem is being attached to my family. I mean, it's great; I love my family (and I don't have to pay for hotel rooms, etc :P) but I have so little freedom! Basically. And the whole 21+ thing? Frustrating. To come from Australia where 18 is enough and then come here and you have to be 21 to do anything! I want to go out to clubs and... just go out!

Then again, I don't think Spokane is really that kind of place... But Chicago would be awesome for that.

*sigh*

Anyway, once again I feel like... I don't know. I feel like my friends aren't really interested in me, lol. I've been a temporary amusement and it was fun, but now it's time for me to move on, to amuse others for I have become tiresome.

Which is disheartening.

Aside from that, just kinda bored. I wish this guy would email back...

xx

this.

Mla mēkenī dśaldyma
Mla mēke jeþōma

Lonely - The Middle East

I am so in love with this song. The full version is better (I could only find a version someone shortened for an assignment (see below)) and the EP is amazing; if you haven't heard it, buy it. Or email me and I'll send it to you :P Only 5 songs but so amazing and beautiful.

And I'M GOING TO SUNSET SOUNDS! And so I'll SEE THEM LIVE! It's going to be AWESOME! :D :D

I think it's time to finish Skins...

And by "haven't posted in a while"

I mean I'm a rotten bastard.

Still, my life isn't THAT interesting.

So, what's the haps?

The dance concert is over for another year. It was great but I could not be more glad that it's over. So tired! I feel like I could sleep for a week.

I feel... disappointed with my life. Not too surprising, but once again I feel like I need to change, so I'm making plans I'll never keep. It's frustrating.

Boyupdate: nothing. I'm talking to a couple but mostly it's just confusing. lol. Annoying.

And I'm off to the US in less than a week! How exciting!

Except I'm still tired and sick lol.

I think that's it. Well, it's all I can think of. At least at the moment.

Hope you're well :)

xx

Shining

OK, I haven't posted in a while and I'm not making a proper post at the moment haha.

I am here to share this. Someone shared this with me and I just love it. I'd love to work with this.

Enjoy :)

Ah, a boy...

On Friday night, I went over to T(1)'s house. It was actually free for the whole night.

So we played around a bit. Then ate dinner and watched a movie. Then played around a bit more.

He tried to fuck me, but he's... rather well endowed, and I've never felt so much pain in my life, so that didn't work haha.

And then we were lying in bed and we decided... we're boyfriend. So yes. I have a boyfriend.

Which is... odd. It's good. I just don't think my brain is quite used to it yet haha.

Exciting.


In other news, Róisín Murphy has at last released some new material, albeit live.



I think I'm most excited about her next album. It's just.... ah! And I'm already a tinsy bit in love with this song.


Other music stuff (and why I'm excited about Róisín Murphy's new album over the other artists I love):

Hooverphonic probably haven't even picked their new singer, and it looks like Alex is busier with Hairglow (his new solo project) than he is with working on new HPH material.
There isn't a peek from Geike regarding her solo album (her site is "still being updated")
Goldfrapp have just finished working on a film score, and are now going back to working on their next album, so it will probably be a while. And I'm rather worried about it. They haven't disappointed in the past, but I'm not sure where they're going to go haha.
Massive Attack have, once again, pushed back the release of their album. I'm sure it will be brilliant, but I'm a bit pissed of at how they're making us wait. Then again, I suppose we shouldn't rush them. "Splitting the Atom" really doesn't excite me, but I like "Pray for Rain". I'll have to get the EP and listen to it again.
Portishead have said they're working on some new songs, but they probably won't release a new album for a couple of years. Which is good; don't want them to rush it. I'm a little bit excited... well, more curious. Will it be the "Portishead" to Third's "Dummy"?
I'm excited about Röyksopp's "Senior". I just wish they'd release it soon!

Then again, pretty sure I'd be excited about anyone releasing a new album. I wish I had the money to buy more music, lol. Right now I'm concentrating on consolidating my current collection: replacing burned CDs (either borrowed or burned from iTMS purchases), etc. And once that's done, back to buying NEW cds! :D

OK, I should go and do something similarly unproductive.

Messy, messy, messy

I seriously over-complicate my life.

So let's just sort this out. There's:
M2, who I still really like. A lot. And really want to boif (that is officially a verb :P).
A2, who is interested in dating me and who I am interested in dating. Very cute.
T1, who I actually am dating and who I do like as well.

And none of them know that any of the others exist.

I'm mainly worried about A2 and T1. I think A2 might still think we're doing the "exclusive friends-with-benefits" things. I doubt it, but you never know. And he might be offended that I'm "dating" other people. Who knows.

Went on another date today with T1. Gave him a handjob while we were driving around, lol.

Then he gave me a quick bj in a random carpark. Unfortunately, both of our homes were busy so we couldn't do anything together properly. Very frustrating. We couldn't keep our hands off each other in the cinema, lol.

I feel that I should tell him that his kisses should be less sloppy, lol.

Fucked if I know.

I do really like him, but... yes.

I'll see how it goes for a little while and if I still don't like the feel of it then, I guess I'll end it. I still want to be his friend though.

Urgh. I sound like such a stereotypical bitch. lol.

But he has basically no self-confidence and I really don't want to be the one to dump him. Well, it's not "dumping" exactly. I think.

*sigh*

Anyway, I should go back to philosophy. Or get ready for this party.

Probably the latter. Glad I have my prorities sorted haha.

xx

The last two days

I suppose I should tell you, lol.

So, yesterday, I went on a date. It was a second date.

With whom? you may ask.

No, it wasn't M2. Or A2.

We'll call him "Tommy" (because, he says, that's his porn name :P).

Anyway, same deal. Talked a bit online then decided to meet at uni. He's closeted (he told me yesterday that he says he's bi, but he feels like he's just moving across the scale to gay. interesting).

So we met at uni and walked around for a bit and talked until he had to go to class. Then we had to depart and we couldn't figure out how so after an awkward pause we shook hands.

We talked online that night and... I don't know. I just watched him on webcam. Just sitting on his bed, looking adorable as he cuddled his pillows around him. We decided we needed a second date on which to make up for the "awkward handshake". We decided to go to see a movie on the weekend.

The next day, I had to go in to uni to work on ling, then was going to meet a friend. He text me around 11 to ask if I was at uni; I told him the situation. He said his classes finished and 12 and wanted to know if we could move up the date. I had to say no, but we text for a little while anyway.

Then I got a text from the guy with whom I was going to meet up who said that he was feeling sick and couldn't meet up.

Interesting.

So I text Tommy back and told him that I could make it.

We found got there around 3 and found that the movie wasn't to start until 20 to 7. So we walked (like WALKED) around and talked. Eventually, we sat down on a bench, just as evening was approaching. We read the paper, and then he said he wanted to kiss me.

Yes, his kisses were a bit messy. And it was the first time either of us had kissed anyone in public. But... wow.

I've never actually cum just from kissing someone. I know that may sound weird, but I have pre-cum when I'm watching porn, or getting a bj. But not from just kissing someone.

Then we went for a bit of a drive. He stole a couple more kisses on the road. Then it was time to see the movie.

We went to see "Up". If you haven't seen it yet, DO IT! I think it's one of their best movies; so cleverly done and with real heart (unlike the pointless "Cars"). And the short that preceeds it is brilliant :D

Anyway, we thought we'd be the only ones there, or at least the oldest.

No way.

The cinema was full, and, if anything, we were among the youngest. Weird.

But it didn't stop us feeling each other up through the whole movie.

He dropped me off at the train station and we made out for a bit. I asked him for once more kiss (twice) before he told me to get out of the car :P

And I grinned like a maniac for the next hour :)

He isn't gorgeous, and he has a shitty car, and a shitty job. And he doesn't have any taste in fashion, or music. But I can't wait for tomorrow (third date haha).

Weird.

It'll be interesting to see what happens with this...